I wonder?
If anyone really knows me inside out?
Even if my parents, do they really know WHAT I want?
Truth is, I try to lie to myself:
I try to tell myself that my best friends know me very well;
My parents know me thoroughly;
But they dont.
They dont know what I want, they dont noe how I feel...
My parents keep on pressurizing me that I have to study well to get into JCs and University just because they think that my brother is a failure cause he got into poly.
But the more pressure they give, the worser my results get...
People my think that I got into a triple science class, then Im supposedly a CLEVER student... But do they know that it is difficult to try and keep up the pace of the lessons in class?
Do they know that triple science students ARE only humans?
Do they still treat triple science students AS human?
Even my relatives, when they know that Im a triple science student, they treated my so differently, and they would use a kind of funny expression to look at me...
Ive never told this to anyone, cause Im not clever with words...
Im not as expressive...
My frenz all around me may think that Im nonchalant to everything...
When I receive bad results,I my seem that I dont care about it, and still so happy-go-lucky, but in me, I AM CRYING.
I dont show the real me cause I didnt want people to pity me.
To others, they may think that I trying to act strong, but to me, its just a form of protection~~
I hate the times when people are getting around me trying to give me comfort, but the more they try, the more I feel uneasy.
Sometimes, I dont even know what I want, so how can i expect others to know my well?
I wonder... ...
EJ_____*(:
